New life. Syukur :)

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hi everyone. So ssup? Long time no see of course right? So how are you people? It's already 2014 and lets start a new life, new beginning and new ending. and yaa of course you guys can see my tittle for the diary now is "New Life" right so I have a lot of things to share with you. serious talk. A lot. About my study, friendship, love. Everything. Even its not as sweet as you thought, but it taught me a lot. Okay lets start baby

       First, I want to tell you about my study. For my first and short sem one was great even it was a tough and quite long journey.It was not easy bcs the subjects omg seriously sometimes I want to cry and shout out bcs I have to repeat one of the paper; Anatomy and Physiology. But alhamdulillah then I'm okay and I pass the paper woo finally baby! Okay not forget about my first sem bcs I'm going to start my second sem by this Monday; 10th February 2014. New year and new sem is coming and of course new Madam will look after my class which is Madam Hanizah. She is my previous Psychology lecturer :)

    Just forget about it bcs I would like to share about my friendships. As usual every friendships has their own ups and downs. Am I right? and so do I :) Well when you get it the college life, everything is your "teacher". It will teach you about life. Meaning of life. Besides, it taught you about friendship. Full of pain yaa pain. Now, for me I just lost my bestfriend I mean male bestfriend named Khairul Rifaat or known as Kechik. I feel like I lost him. I didn't my expect that I will loose him like now and yes now it happened. But I know one day we will talk as usual, laugh and share all the problems like we did before. It takes time to recover but I know it will inshaAllah. I miss all about our friendship seriously only Allah knows what I feel inside.

    Love. What is love? Poeple know how to love but usually the dont know what is mean by Love and so do I. Yaa I still blur about love actually I admit it.Takes time and experience to make it real and truly understand about it. Bcs for me, if you love someone pls make it real so that you can get what you want and yaa fight for your happiness. Actually I still confused about my feelings and everything. I just dont want to make a wrong decisions like I did before. Now, I have them. You want to know who they are? They are; Faris, Alif, Azrul and Fareez. Honestly they are in the Positive Zone in my life hahaha.Among this four, I can honestly tell you that I love 2 of them and I cant tell you who they are bcs it is my privacy. I just can tell you that only 2 of them and another 2 are my male bestfriend. And now I'm confused who should be my other half, my love and be my partner. Frustrating seriously bcs I love them and I have to choose only one. One. Can somebody help me? :( I just dont want to loose them. No I wont but I have to decide. Ya Allah kuatkan lah hati hambaMu ini Ya Allah aku mohon :(